I had the great pleasure of going to Mexico for my very first time this Christmas. The trip was lovely full of hot weather, warm swims, motor boat rides, Mexican moon shine, scorpions, whales, yummy food, walks in the jungle, family and a handful of unexpected friends that I ran into. I diffidently couldn’t ask for much more…
More photos from my summer trip to Seattle.
Back in the jungle…
Back in the Jungle…
Remember death when you look at me.
Remember death and you will see he is closer to you then me.
What has become of life when all I see is dark shadows of eternity?
There’s a soft tenderness in death’s foreverness.
Death is the only suitor who follows through making all his promises come true.
He seems a handsome man, a king of a strange enchanted land.
Are all the ghosts his brides?
Wearing white, queens ruling by his side…
I see death in every handsome man I see,
Am I merely pretending to be Persephone?
N.Y.C. Baby!!! What a fun trip. So many magical people I that enjoyed my time with. As Clark would say it was totally “Wild Style”.
I’m so excited im going to N.Y.C. next Wednesday for the first time in five years!! My best friend and pretty much brother/gay husband Lyell Rose was sweet enough to buy me a plan ticket to come along with him. I can only imagine all the fun we are going to have!! Of course all of this reminded me of the last time I was in that amazing city and I thought I would share some photos from the trip. Hope you enjoy.
Jeronimo Whitemountain is a grisly and tough old man whom I met at a fisherman bar in Seattle, which happens to be the grayest town on the west coast. He had just grabbed and thrown a man by the collar of his shirt onto the floor, just after the man had poked fun at an accessory Jeronimo was wearing. The accessory he was wearing was the carcass of a wolf, from head to hind paw, which he fashioned as a shawl around his stout shoulders. Intrigued, I bought him a gin and asked him if he’d ever heard of Billy the Kid. We got to talking and after two more drinks he was spilling his love of Rimbaud into me. He told me of his years at sea and how most of his friends now sleep with the fish. I asked him if he ever considered writing a memoir about the ocean. He replied, ‘Memoirs are for pussies’ and after a few moments of silently staring into his empty glass, he said, ‘ I only ever wrote poetry and I only ever loved Eleanor’. He then pulled out of a small briefcase a sheet of letter-stock with his name handsomely printed in royal blue ink on the top right corner. He held the sheet out for a moment in front of him, then handed it to me, rose from the barstool, and left without another word. As he bumblingly left the bar I noticed a thin stream of tears climbing down his face. I looked down at the faded sheet of letter-stock he had left me and this is what I read:
For Eleanor From Jeronimo Whitemountain
It’s strange, I know,
but sometimes I cherish the wind out here.
I consume my image of you, embracing its
grandeur in the pit of my stomach;
my salty dog-ette.
The wind growls some, its only folly being
the slight freeze that heckles the skin around
my trachea and turns the skin to
In the bowels of this sloop,
where my dollars are counted
my waking hours prove a liminal blur.
I recall a drunk January
with the stigma of snow…. &
we almost wound all the way down
into the icicle-ridden marina.
I remember always how un-remorseful
the sea can be
& falling in is forgetting everything,
toes gnawed on by the herring.
I wake up and reach for the shore
but it’s missing. I get up and tame my hungers
with a slim can of white-chunk tuna in water. That’s
all there is here.
I extend my heavy yearnings through
of an aged udder. I know that I’m a hunter
only really visible in breaths but
I swear I’m still with you. I swear
over and over, rocking with this current
in twilights daze,
slaving to a net
slaving to a cage
slaving to a sinister crustacean.
Nestled between a crane and a cot
I imagine myself a reptile
climbing up the mast
in reverence to your plea…
Ah, to crash into an
insurgence of leaves, burying
my frosty nose into your womanly pit;
this intrigues me, implementing
my scales on to yours. I will return soon,
a sack of marred bones, fiending a huddle
broken by sexual favors.
I will return more man than child.
I will return holding the dark waters
as my insufferable pet.